Author: Kayfromhome
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The Silent Years… by the Girl with nothing left to say.
Today I gently blew the dust off my keyboard for the first time in years. It was more of an exhale filled with resignation, really. With shaking hands and a wavering heart, I went through the motions of a long forgotten, half-memory type habit that’s much less sure than the muscle memory of riding a…
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For Daniel: Is it year 6 already?
If we’re being honest, I never thought we’d end up together. Even on the days I wanted you most. I was everything a good Christian mom warned her son against. Bad stock from a bad breed; a history drenched and dripping in scarlet. And yet, here we are. 12 years past our first “hello’s,” and…
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For Daniel, Years Four & Five
Dear Daniel, I know I skipped a year, but have mercy on me. 2020 was not what I anticipated. But, I don’t want a do over. (Personally, I believe we did the thing right the first time.) I’m sure I have more to say, but not today. I love you, my Daniel. You were always…
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6 Feet Apart
If you had told me 7 weeks ago that the next time I would be “all together” with my church family would be 6 feet apart in a parking lot, I would have thought you were barking mad. If I had known that the last Sunday was gonna be the last Sunday, I would have…
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Hello, New Year
I’m not typically a New Year resolutions kind of girl, but 2020 sure feels like a clean sheet of white paper just waiting to be doodled on. 30 years alive. 4 decades. 2 centuries. Many days filled with drama, joy and intrigue fit together like LEGO pieces, building a life so rich and full that…
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When the world falls Apart: A tribute to my grandmother.
Have you ever had the rug pulled out from underneath you? Not literally, but metaphorically? Have you ever gone about your life like normal, only to have life sucker punch you in the gut when you least expect it? A phone call. A rejection letter. A break up text. It only takes a second for…
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Love One Another
When we read in Scripture, “Love one another,” that doesn’t mean, “Barely tolerate,” “Be nice to, but don’t get too close to,” or, “Invite to join, but otherwise avoid” one another. It means support and champion one another. It means bear with, rejoice with and mourn with one another. It means when you hurt one…
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Slow.
Tonight I took it slow. I took a bath. Washed my hair. Stared at the ceiling. Drank some tea. Put on a nightgown and slathered something honey based all over my face. The laundry and dishwasher are going at the same time, and I’m trying not to think what that’ll do to my utilities bill.…
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My Big Mouth and the trouble it brings.
Have you ever said too much? Spoke too much? Made something too much “about you“? Only to realize it way too late to backpedal, so now you have to double down and follow through—digging yourself into a deep, black, unforgiving hole? I am constantly disappointed by my own actions, and my innate need to overcompensate…
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You Can’t Say Yes to Everything: a short lesson on breathing and boundaries
Dear exhausted and overworked friend, I know you mean well. I know you have the best intentions. I know you think that it’s just another “rough patch” and if you push through, there’ll be peace and rest on the other side. I hate to be the one to tell you this, but there probably won’t…
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