Hello, New Year
I’m not typically a New Year resolutions kind of girl, but 2020 sure feels like a clean sheet of white paper just waiting to be doodled on. 30 years alive. 4 decades. 2 centuries. Many days filled with drama, joy and intrigue fit together like LEGO pieces, building a life so rich and full that…
When the world falls Apart: A tribute to my grandmother.
Have you ever had the rug pulled out from underneath you? Not literally, but metaphorically? Have you ever gone about your life like normal, only to have life sucker punch you in the gut when you least expect it? A phone call. A rejection letter. A break up text. It only takes a second for…
Tonight I took it slow. I took a bath. Washed my hair. Stared at the ceiling. Drank some tea. Put on a nightgown and slathered something honey based all over my face. The laundry and dishwasher are going at the same time, and I’m trying not to think what that’ll do to my utilities bill.…
My Big Mouth and the trouble it brings.
Have you ever said too much? Spoke too much? Made something too much “about you“? Only to realize it way too late to backpedal, so now you have to double down and follow through—digging yourself into a deep, black, unforgiving hole? I am constantly disappointed by my own actions, and my innate need to overcompensate…
You Can’t Say Yes to Everything: a short lesson on breathing and boundaries
Dear exhausted and overworked friend, I know you mean well. I know you have the best intentions. I know you think that it’s just another “rough patch” and if you push through, there’ll be peace and rest on the other side. I hate to be the one to tell you this, but there probably won’t…
For Daniel: Year Three, I Love The Way
We were married last year. You promised some things, and I did too. There were words thrown around like “love” and “forever” and “yours” and “mine.” We swore to each other in front of friends, family and a few strangers that we would love and cherish each other until our very last breath. I didn’t…
When Fear Strikes Again
Last month I had a panic attack. It was a full blown, heart pumping, blood rushing, fists clenching, freak-out. To feel like you have no control over your own mind and body is a scary thing. I would have screamed if there had been enough breath in my lungs. I forgot how excruciating anxiety can…
I meant to be thinner for my wedding.
I was going to start working out 6 months before, because I was going to have a killer body for the honeymoon…
PSA: 2 Weeks Out
This is a public service announcement that I am getting married in TWO WEEKS. So, I apologize for the unintentional hiatus. To make up for my absence… An update. Some Current Events: I’m almost all the way in to my new apartment! You know, except for the living there full time part. Loving shout out…
I am not a biblical lover.
At the core of who I am, I am petty and spiteful; impatient and unkind.