Last month I had a panic attack. It was a full blown, heart pumping, blood rushing, fists clenching, freak-out. To feel like you have no control over your own mind and body is a scary thing. I would have screamed if there had been enough breath in my lungs. I forgot how excruciating anxiety can be. … Continue reading When Fear Strikes Again
I was going to start working out 6 months before, because I was going to have a killer body for the honeymoon...
This is a public service announcement that I am getting married in TWO WEEKS. So, I apologize for the unintentional hiatus. To make up for my absence... An update. Some Current Events: I'm almost all the way in to my new apartment! You know, except for the living there full time part. Loving shout out … Continue reading PSA: 2 Weeks Out
At the core of who I am, I am petty and spiteful; impatient and unkind.
I swear, I'm not anti-social. In fact, I need socialization. I crave belonging, and I long for friendship, conversation and laughter like anyone else. I just do socialization a little differently than you do.
Vanity, pride, and a deep love for pretty things bred a severe self-loathing at my mediocrity. Anyone smarter, lovelier and more talented was automatically categorized as "enemy"—specially favored and preferred by God.
My life is full to the brim of photos depicting a life that looks nothing like the one I planned to have, but oh, how unremarkably beautiful it all is.