Author: Kayfromhome
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Pre-Nostalgia
I am already nostalgic for the days I am living in. Pre-nostalgic, if you will. There has been good in every season of my life, but none so solid, so quiet and calm, so deeply abiding as the good of now. Sometimes, I weep prematurely for the days when things will change. I indulge in…
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34 isn’t midlife is it? So why am I in crisis?
Let me start by saying that I feel young. Which I know is totally something old people say, but truly I do. My spirit feels youthful, in the way that I can still be idealistic. I am compelled by deep, burning passion and the urge to “change the world.” I am young enough that I…
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Someone once said…
Have you ever considered that He designed you with your exact desires and skills, strengths and weaknesses, and He works relentlessly and ardently to help you realize those desires? There is coming a confluence of plan and desire, and every day is a step closer to that empyreal day—a day of rested passion, of founded…
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The Silent Years… by the Girl with nothing left to say.
Today I gently blew the dust off my keyboard for the first time in years. It was more of an exhale filled with resignation, really. With shaking hands and a wavering heart, I went through the motions of a long forgotten, half-memory type habit that’s much less sure than the muscle memory of riding a…
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For Daniel: Is it year 6 already?
If we’re being honest, I never thought we’d end up together. Even on the days I wanted you most. I was everything a good Christian mom warned her son against. Bad stock from a bad breed; a history drenched and dripping in scarlet. And yet, here we are. 12 years past our first “hello’s,” and…
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For Daniel, Years Four & Five
Dear Daniel, I know I skipped a year, but have mercy on me. 2020 was not what I anticipated. But, I don’t want a do over. (Personally, I believe we did the thing right the first time.) I’m sure I have more to say, but not today. I love you, my Daniel. You were always…
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6 Feet Apart
If you had told me 7 weeks ago that the next time I would be “all together” with my church family would be 6 feet apart in a parking lot, I would have thought you were barking mad. If I had known that the last Sunday was gonna be the last Sunday, I would have…
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Hello, New Year
I’m not typically a New Year resolutions kind of girl, but 2020 sure feels like a clean sheet of white paper just waiting to be doodled on. 30 years alive. 4 decades. 2 centuries. Many days filled with drama, joy and intrigue fit together like LEGO pieces, building a life so rich and full that…
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When the world falls Apart: A tribute to my grandmother.
Have you ever had the rug pulled out from underneath you? Not literally, but metaphorically? Have you ever gone about your life like normal, only to have life sucker punch you in the gut when you least expect it? A phone call. A rejection letter. A break up text. It only takes a second for…
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Love One Another
When we read in Scripture, “Love one another,” that doesn’t mean, “Barely tolerate,” “Be nice to, but don’t get too close to,” or, “Invite to join, but otherwise avoid” one another. It means support and champion one another. It means bear with, rejoice with and mourn with one another. It means when you hurt one…
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